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Sunday, 06 January 2008

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    A Thousand Splendid Suns
    By Khaled Hosseini
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    tune my heart to sing thy grace.

    I have been so blessed.  Without a doubt,perhaps not as timely or the way I would have, but definitely he has cared for me on every side. I guess his ways are truly better then mine. I have been so selfish lately, it's been a trend the last few years.  It's funny the more I seek God's face the more satisfied I become with life. The annoyances of yesterday, become the joys of today. My life is far from perfect, but by his grace I can hear his symphony in the gentle roar of the ocean or in the sound of the wind through the trees. When I seek his face it is like my whole perspective just clicks into place. Like a cosmic puzzle whose pieces finally realized why they were shaped so strangely. I am a child of God, I am loved, I have been promised good and not bad, he is worthy of my trust and I want to trust him. I am a puzzle piece! I love being a puzzle piece.! I have stopped making excuses for my shape, for my color. I have a purpose that is far bigger then I have ever dreamed. God has shown me a glimpse of his kingdom today in the mundane and I hope to never stop searching for it tomorrow. God created me to marvel in his works and even now my insecurities are causing me to question how this sounds. To be honest I am afraid, afraid that people won't like my puzzle piece, afraid that somehow someway I will miss my purpose, but I hold on to the truth that God is bigger then this piece and even bigger then my cosmic puzzle. I will be most fulfilled when I am most satisfied in him. I love that God loves me, I love that tomorrow I can wake up and worship him in the little things and the big things. I don't know why, I really don't know how, but I do know that he is faithful and for me now it is enough.

Tuesday, 01 January 2008

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    The Office - Season Three
    By Rainn Wilson, Steve Carell, Jenna Fischer, John Krasinski, Ed Helms
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    A new year a new blog...

    Well, I decided that it would be fun to have a xanga again.  I thought it would be neat to start one on the first day of the new year. My life has been soft of hectic this past year; a lot of changes and lessons learned. Well OK to get you up to speed on everything this past year here is a recap of 07 well since I stopped the old xanga :).
    My life in a nutshell
    1. I found out I have food allergies! woo hoo (but really this is awesome) You might remember that I was feeling kind of gross the last few years. I was sick a lot, my head was foggy and I had a significant vitamin deficiency (and all the great stuff that comes along with it). I was in and out of doctors for a while and it was pretty frustrating. Well, I decided last June to take my stomach to the mattresses! And with the help of the handy dandy Internet found that my conditions were similar to that of a person who had Celiac disease (a gluten allergy). So there are a few tests to see if you have it, but the best indicator is just to go on a gluten free diet and see how you feel! So I did and with in two weeks I saw such a dramatic change. I could think, I wasn't tired, I  could go bike riding without taking a nap and my stomach pains were slowly leaving! It was pretty rough in the beginning learning what has gluten and what I could eat. I can't eat things like oats, wheat and barley, which is pretty much hidden in everything in the world (soy sauce who would have thought!), but really I feel awesome! so awesome! I wish i could tell you how awesome! Mrs. Candy just found out a little while ago so we're officially kindred spirits AND in a week there is a Celiac support group we're going to.
    2. I went back to school and changed my major 4 times. And still I got nothing... any suggestions would be greatly appreciated.  I have learned that I really need to seek God's will, before I go flitting around.  I don't know something happened when I turned 20. It was sort of like a mid life crisis, but more like a I have nothing about my future crisis. I was floating around and then bam all of a sudden my life is rushing down a river of blankness. Looking back it probably would have been a better idea to trust God before I freaked out and am still learning that resting is a good thing. So no more life changes until I hear from the Father and he opens a door. It is way too exhausting the other way.
    3. I still work at starbucks. It's ok I like the people, it's fun making drinks and it definately has stretched me as a person. My old manger left and most of my friends there transfered to other stores. It's still cool, but it really doesn't pay very well. So, i'm praying for another job that pays better and I still can interact with people on a daily basis.
    4. God has been so good to me and I  finally learned that I truely don't deserve it.(what a hard process that was!) He is my rock and i'm not afraid anymore.

    HAPPY 2008! I have a feeling that it is going to be an adventure!

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